In June 2004, I embraced a world I knew nothing about as I prepared for the Miss America competition. I know. That wasn't what you were expecting to read just now. So let me back up and explain a few things. But first, a bit of warning: if you are currently recovering from an eating disorder, several remarks here can be quite triggering. This is my personal story, so I feel it is important to include some of these details. However, this could be damaging to your recovery, so I suggest coming back to read this at a later date